Favourite Red Lipsticks

Now, I have two favourite reds that I stand by: Dior 999 Matte and YSL 201. The Dior is the darker, evening red whereas the YSL seems it has a hint of orange, but still holds that beautiful, vibrant red. I love them both and they both work for me. If buying Dior 999, I do recommend getting the lip pencil just to help it stay on longer and to look even better. There is nothing in the world better than a good red lippy to bring out the sass in anyone!

 

 

Dior 999: £27.50

YSL 201:£27.00

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Being Average?

I have only started noticing that I am just average. Now, I am not saying that there’s anything wrong with being average. I have a pretty good time being average, but I do wonder sometimes why I am so ‘average’.

I have received average grades from primary school and it never used to bothered me, I was happy. But as I get older, I realise how average the world perceives me to be. Looking back, I have never really excelled in anything, I have always just done ‘okay’. I am not saying I feel I’ve failed or others consider me under par: I simply feel vulnerable at this time and want to share how I see things.

I’m sure I’m not the only one to feel like this and I bet there are a few readers categorised as ‘average’ who can relate to this frustration: I’ve always tried my best, I’ve worked hard yet when considered by others, be it an examiner or tutor, I have always got an average mark. And you have to think, if that’s the result of giving it my best shot, am I condemned to come second, forever more? Is average all I will ever be?

But now reviewing how I feel about being as bloody average as I am, I realise how irritated I am about the marks and the comments: there was little challenge, no push, simply assurances that I was doing really well, only grooming me for my ‘average’ position. Are pushy and assertive the traits those that help develop a person look for in recognising potential? I am neither.

What is done is done: categories defined by others is one way of creating boxes for people to inhabit and why should I, or anyone else, determine how average we are based on what others define? If I was to look at it through a different lens, I see that I am actually bloody brilliant! But when times are grey and you see nothing but dark clouds and rain, it is hard to see your strengths; your potential; and the opportunities out there. I sit under dark clouds a lot, I just need to let the sun shine in more.

I don’t think anyone should let the label of ‘average’ chain them: we are all exceptional in our own ways, whether we see it or not. But I know if we abandon such labels and the negative connotations they hold over us, we will all see how bloody brilliant we can be.

Where did my independence go?

I just got back from uni…. end of my last year, so yeah, bye!

 

Uni was the first time I had been away from home, I couldn’t cook (still can’t, but will be forever grateful to Deliveroo), wasn’t great at ironing (still not) and not that keen on cleaning (but needs must). Three years of focusing on studies, lectures and getting pissed. I’ve come back home to two fabulous parents, but after a couple of weeks of pampered bliss, it hit me: Where did my independence go?

At uni, if I had no food in the fridge and it was too late to trek to town (or I simply couldn’t be arsed), deliverance (or deliveryJ) was just one speed dial away. Not cooking meant even when I did shop, my fridge was full of beautiful sliced bread, processed cheese, the cheapest ham and the must-have Frubes (I know it’s for children, but hell – it saved on the washing up). Don’t get me wrong, I do know how to turn on an oven… hence, on occasion, a freezer full of chicken nuggets and chips.  Now at home, the fridge/freezer is always magically full…. of healthy shit. Salad: NO! Veg: WTF!! Artisan breads: what’s wrong with plastic wrapped sliced plastic! So, why, I ask, are my fabulous parents attempting to get me used to the better things in life, when it will simply be harder for me in the long run? I need to keep to what I know in order to face the world, for when I move out and start an internship on next to nothing. I love them dearly, but they need to let me do my own thing on the food front – got to keep real!

When I was at uni I did a lot more: I had the freedom to go anywhere and not be questioned or asked what time I’d be back – I simply did my own thing, in my own time and that was the end of it.. I could be in a bad mood, lock myself away until the darkness lifted and not be questioned. Whereas now I am home, if I leave the room or I don’t talk much, its 21 questions asking why? I love that they care so much, but it is hard coming home – I feel I’ve gone back in time, I’m not a little girl anymore,  I’m 21 and can kinda do my own thing.

I have been trying out new things (this blog for one). I was always focused on getting the right results so I could go on and get some more good results… but I’ve never felt free to experiment. I’m not saying I haven’t had fun, but I’ve conformed from Day 1, never been a rebel and now I’ve done all that I am looking to conform some more: Get a job and be a good daughter. But is it hard, job requirements always seem to include something I haven’t done, or haven’t got.  I’ve tried to achieve academically so I can grow and support myself, but some days, after trawling through job opportunities, I wonder if I will ever be independent.

 

Have I lost my independence or am I just growing up? The more I see, the more I realise that at university I had to grow up fast and live on my own. I wasn’t well prepared, but I I did it. And if I did it once, I can do it again! I still have a lot of growing up to do, but I will get my life sorted and get done what I need to in order to get the independence I so want.

Eyeshadow Palettes Review!!

I’ll get straight into it!

 

My absolute favourite at the moment is Huda Beauty Textured Shadows Palette – Rose Gold Edition, I’m in love: the mix of colours is just divine. One colour I still haven’t tried yet is Flamingo, an almost neon pink – I’m not feeling it, but I just need that special moment (and possibly a Cosmopolitan or a Woo Woo or both) and I’m giving it a try! But the other colours ….. I. am. In. love. With. ‘Trust fund’ is beautiful and ‘Angelic’ is a colour I’ve not seen before so, it was fun experimenting with. They all blend well. I’ve had no problems with this palette and I love that it can be used for anytime of the day looks!

This is another one I use the most ANASTASIA BEVERLY HILLS Modern Renaissance Eye Shadow Palette. I love the colours, I’ve experimented a few times as I have never really tried to work with colours such as ‘Red Ochre’ or ‘Venetian Red’ but the more I played around, the more comfortable I get and the more I like the colours. ‘Antique Bronze’ beats them all of them – for me it’s so pretty I wish I could wear it every day!

 

Naked Urban Decay Smoky Eyeshadow Palette is fabulous, I normally use this for daytime, but I also bring it out when I want to put a bit more effort in with my look. My favourites within the palette are ‘High’; ‘Dirtysweet’; ‘Whiskey’; and ‘Thirteen’, these are so versatile and you can accomplish such a pretty look.

Next brand is Too Faced. The Return of Sexy is a really nice palette. I like that it comes with three leaflets and gives you three looks day/night for each section. The sections are a gold, purple and silver/grey. I like the choices and it’s nice that there is so many colours!

Too Faced Smokey Eye again has three choices, Day, Classic, Fashion. This palette is great if you’re travelling and don’t want to take up a lot of room in your bag.  I love that you can create a variety of looks from one palette – plus it comes with a tip leaflet to give you a few pointers, so if you’re starting out, it’s a great palette to play with.

Benefit Peek-a-Bright Eyes Set I love this! I use this when I am in a rush or if I’m not in the mood or just can’t be bothered with doing my face – doesn’t happen often, but you need to be prepared! It is so simple to use and if you need to travel light, this is a must. Three simple colours along with a cream – it’s such a simple palette but works wonders if you want a quick and easy look.

 

 

Prices

Huda Beauty Textured Shadows Palette – Rose Gold Edition-£56.00

Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance Eye Shadow Palette- £41.00

Naked Urban Decay Smoky Eyeshadow Palette-£39.50

Too Faced The Return of Sexy- £38.50

Too Faced Smokey Eye- £26.00

Benefit Peek-a-Bright Eyes Set- £25.50