Favourite Red Lipsticks

Now, I have two favourite reds that I stand by: Dior 999 Matte and YSL 201. The Dior is the darker, evening red whereas the YSL seems it has a hint of orange, but still holds that beautiful, vibrant red. I love them both and they both work for me. If buying Dior 999, I do recommend getting the lip pencil just to help it stay on longer and to look even better. There is nothing in the world better than a good red lippy to bring out the sass in anyone!

 

 

Dior 999: £27.50

YSL 201:£27.00

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Being Average?

I have only started noticing that I am just average. Now, I am not saying that there’s anything wrong with being average. I have a pretty good time being average, but I do wonder sometimes why I am so ‘average’.

I have received average grades from primary school and it never used to bothered me, I was happy. But as I get older, I realise how average the world perceives me to be. Looking back, I have never really excelled in anything, I have always just done ‘okay’. I am not saying I feel I’ve failed or others consider me under par: I simply feel vulnerable at this time and want to share how I see things.

I’m sure I’m not the only one to feel like this and I bet there are a few readers categorised as ‘average’ who can relate to this frustration: I’ve always tried my best, I’ve worked hard yet when considered by others, be it an examiner or tutor, I have always got an average mark. And you have to think, if that’s the result of giving it my best shot, am I condemned to come second, forever more? Is average all I will ever be?

But now reviewing how I feel about being as bloody average as I am, I realise how irritated I am about the marks and the comments: there was little challenge, no push, simply assurances that I was doing really well, only grooming me for my ‘average’ position. Are pushy and assertive the traits those that help develop a person look for in recognising potential? I am neither.

What is done is done: categories defined by others is one way of creating boxes for people to inhabit and why should I, or anyone else, determine how average we are based on what others define? If I was to look at it through a different lens, I see that I am actually bloody brilliant! But when times are grey and you see nothing but dark clouds and rain, it is hard to see your strengths; your potential; and the opportunities out there. I sit under dark clouds a lot, I just need to let the sun shine in more.

I don’t think anyone should let the label of ‘average’ chain them: we are all exceptional in our own ways, whether we see it or not. But I know if we abandon such labels and the negative connotations they hold over us, we will all see how bloody brilliant we can be.

Huda Beauty Lashes

 

Scarlett: These are one of my go-tos for everyday: I like the shape they give and the thickness and length are perfect. I don’t think these are too heavy, but if you have smaller eyes I would advise against getting them.

Lana: Holy Moly! I can’t wear these, they don’t suit me one bit. First of all, these lashes are too long and too chunky. On the plus side, they are also quite small and the fit is perfect (normally I have to cut lashes down) it’s just a shame about the style. If you can pull them off, hats off to you.

Farah: Nice length, great thickness just a shame about the spidery look. They look OK, I’ve been told, but that spikey look is not for me – spider legs on my eyes are what nightmares are made of.

Samantha: Great, if you don’t like heavy lashes and want a pair of lightweight more natural looking lashes. They are wispy but still give you that full look.

Sasha: Well, hello there lovely lashes, how are you doin’? These are my trusted go-tos, be it a casual night out or a sassy day about. I love these, pretty and long lasting – I’ve worn them quite a few times and they are still holding up. I love the shape of these lashes: they are quite long but when they are on they do look very natural. In terms of value for money, these are on point – the usage you get from them before they start to get icky is remarkable!

 

Huda Beauty Prices

Scarlett:£15.50

Lana:£15.50

Farah:£18.00

Samantha:£15.50

Sasha:£15.50

Where did my independence go?

I just got back from uni…. end of my last year, so yeah, bye!

 

Uni was the first time I had been away from home, I couldn’t cook (still can’t, but will be forever grateful to Deliveroo), wasn’t great at ironing (still not) and not that keen on cleaning (but needs must). Three years of focusing on studies, lectures and getting pissed. I’ve come back home to two fabulous parents, but after a couple of weeks of pampered bliss, it hit me: Where did my independence go?

At uni, if I had no food in the fridge and it was too late to trek to town (or I simply couldn’t be arsed), deliverance (or deliveryJ) was just one speed dial away. Not cooking meant even when I did shop, my fridge was full of beautiful sliced bread, processed cheese, the cheapest ham and the must-have Frubes (I know it’s for children, but hell – it saved on the washing up). Don’t get me wrong, I do know how to turn on an oven… hence, on occasion, a freezer full of chicken nuggets and chips.  Now at home, the fridge/freezer is always magically full…. of healthy shit. Salad: NO! Veg: WTF!! Artisan breads: what’s wrong with plastic wrapped sliced plastic! So, why, I ask, are my fabulous parents attempting to get me used to the better things in life, when it will simply be harder for me in the long run? I need to keep to what I know in order to face the world, for when I move out and start an internship on next to nothing. I love them dearly, but they need to let me do my own thing on the food front – got to keep real!

When I was at uni I did a lot more: I had the freedom to go anywhere and not be questioned or asked what time I’d be back – I simply did my own thing, in my own time and that was the end of it.. I could be in a bad mood, lock myself away until the darkness lifted and not be questioned. Whereas now I am home, if I leave the room or I don’t talk much, its 21 questions asking why? I love that they care so much, but it is hard coming home – I feel I’ve gone back in time, I’m not a little girl anymore,  I’m 21 and can kinda do my own thing.

I have been trying out new things (this blog for one). I was always focused on getting the right results so I could go on and get some more good results… but I’ve never felt free to experiment. I’m not saying I haven’t had fun, but I’ve conformed from Day 1, never been a rebel and now I’ve done all that I am looking to conform some more: Get a job and be a good daughter. But is it hard, job requirements always seem to include something I haven’t done, or haven’t got.  I’ve tried to achieve academically so I can grow and support myself, but some days, after trawling through job opportunities, I wonder if I will ever be independent.

 

Have I lost my independence or am I just growing up? The more I see, the more I realise that at university I had to grow up fast and live on my own. I wasn’t well prepared, but I I did it. And if I did it once, I can do it again! I still have a lot of growing up to do, but I will get my life sorted and get done what I need to in order to get the independence I so want.

Unicorn Lashes Review

Unicorn Lashes

 First off, I love false eyelashes: I am obsessed – like ‘hi, what’s the thing you love most in the world (apart from family and Boo, the dog)? Oh, I don’t know… how about FALSE EYELASHES! Now you get my depth of my eyelash obsession, let’s begin!

Bambi, Unicorn Flutter and Rainbow Wings!

Let’s start with the packaging super cute. But the trouble is, the cute packaging gets in the way when you put the lashes back in the box. No biggie, but this is a case of form over function, sometimes packaging should just be about protecting the product.

Bambi: These are very full and heavy. Personally, I like them a lot, but if you aren’t a fan of big, full lashes then these are not for you. However, if you want that ‘fuck off, heelloo’ look then definitely go get them. But, beware, they can be heavy to wear. They are also surprisingly versatile: these work just as well with subtle eye shadows, as well as a heavier, dramatic look. Having worn them with both looks, my personal preference is the subtle eye shadows.

 Unicorn Flutter: Cute name and extremely long. Lighter than Bambi, they are certainly more fluttery – great for flirting but you cannot wear glasses with them. And, beware if you have a low brow – not a cool look when your lashes blend with your eyebrows! The shape and lash style is lovely, but the exaggerated length does slightly put me off.

Rainbow Wings: Again, a very long lash, but not as exaggerated as and lighter than Unicorn Flutter. Personally, I think you could wear these for daytime. Whilst not as impressive as Unicorn Flutter, I do like them a tad more.

 

I also purchased the glue they recommend from their site and personally wouldn’t bother: it doesn’t do as well as my other eyelash glue, so I wouldn’t waste your money!

 

 

 

 Prices

Unicorn Lashes Prices

Bambi:£22.95

Unicorn Flutter:£9.99

Rainbow Wings:£18.99

I Thought I made new friends! What happened?

So it goes like this: I was on a night out with a great friend having a good laugh and quite a few Jägerbombs and double Disaronno and cokes. Of course, we had to make compromises due to the long queues at the places we wanted to go (and we are not women who wait – long queues are for bus stops and supermarkets, not a night out). So we landed in a sweet, little bar with no queues and which served drinks – a perfect combo! A table was free so we parked. Happily the table next to us was full of some really chill, nice people. I got chatting to one of them as they kindly showed me where the loo was. Note: I was not that drunk, but I had ‘forgotten’ my glasses (OK, I admit – sometimes vanity gets the best of me).

After I came back I thought you know what? She helped me let’s have a drink together. We were great friends after we came back and so we joined her friends. The conversation flowed, I really connected with these guys –good times. Finally! People who got me and understood where I was coming from. We bonded so well (you can always tell when someone asks if you can go to the loo with them for a chat about a personal problem that they think you might to be able to help with).

At this point I should have had an inkling – why pick me for assistance with clarity and support? Drunk old me? But Ok, I took it. How my world was crushed… as she casually mentioned they were all high on Molly! I don’t make judgements, not something I would do to be honest, its none of my business. BUT the people who finally understood me, who I bonded with, connected with, were all high!  What does that say about me? What is my thought process like, how do I see the world sober(ish)? Do I ramble, do I go off on tangents… So bereft I was I then called my mum when I got home (sorry Mum, I know calls at 3am are not cool, but it was an emergency). ‘Hey Mum, do I talk like I’m out of it?’ I asked… the answer was a simple ‘Yes, Phoebe.’

 

Cool. Great. Good times… Will I ever have a conversation with someone who actually gets me when not under the influence of drugs? Apparently not.

Powder vs. Cream Contour

Powder vs. Cream contour

 

Contouring will be the death of me: I have yet to master the fabulous art, but I know the basics. I have ‘Shade and Light’ Face Contour Palette and the Anastasia Beverly Hills Pro Series Contour Cream Kit Light. I have tried both individually and both together, but because of my skin I can’t have too much on without it look atrocious. Also, a tip: don’t over-do it – what looks good for a glam selfie doesn’t necessarily look great as a day look.

I mostly use Anastasia Beverly Hills Pro Series Contour Cream Kit Light favouring four of the six colours. As with most things in life, sometimes it seems to glide on and blends well  but other times it looks like the result of a mud fight – I’ve no idea why this happens, I use the same foundation, the same brushes, but I struggle getting a consistent good result – and I know it’s user error, not the product! But as they say, practice makes perfect.

The ‘Shade and Light’ Face Contour Palette I use 2 out of 6 and sometimes just the one. However, this product I do struggle with – I love Kat Von D and I want to like her products but I am not happy with this set: The colours aren’t great and the three paler colours look so caked on, even when I apply very sparingly, there is something about this product that just doesn’t suit me.

 

Prices

Anastasia Beverly Hills Pro Series Contour Cream Kit Light-£39.00

‘Shade and Light’ Face Contour Palette-£37.00