I have only started noticing that I am just average. Now, I am not saying that there’s anything wrong with being average. I have a pretty good time being average, but I do wonder sometimes why I am so ‘average’.
I have received average grades from primary school and it never used to bothered me, I was happy. But as I get older, I realise how average the world perceives me to be. Looking back, I have never really excelled in anything, I have always just done ‘okay’. I am not saying I feel I’ve failed or others consider me under par: I simply feel vulnerable at this time and want to share how I see things.
I’m sure I’m not the only one to feel like this and I bet there are a few readers categorised as ‘average’ who can relate to this frustration: I’ve always tried my best, I’ve worked hard yet when considered by others, be it an examiner or tutor, I have always got an average mark. And you have to think, if that’s the result of giving it my best shot, am I condemned to come second, forever more? Is average all I will ever be?
But now reviewing how I feel about being as bloody average as I am, I realise how irritated I am about the marks and the comments: there was little challenge, no push, simply assurances that I was doing really well, only grooming me for my ‘average’ position. Are pushy and assertive the traits those that help develop a person look for in recognising potential? I am neither.
What is done is done: categories defined by others is one way of creating boxes for people to inhabit and why should I, or anyone else, determine how average we are based on what others define? If I was to look at it through a different lens, I see that I am actually bloody brilliant! But when times are grey and you see nothing but dark clouds and rain, it is hard to see your strengths; your potential; and the opportunities out there. I sit under dark clouds a lot, I just need to let the sun shine in more.
I don’t think anyone should let the label of ‘average’ chain them: we are all exceptional in our own ways, whether we see it or not. But I know if we abandon such labels and the negative connotations they hold over us, we will all see how bloody brilliant we can be.